Ready?

I feel like I have a lot to get done today before I go into the hospital tomorrow. I guess I am a little bit indenial about the possibility of having the baby tomorrow. I feel torn about the whole situation. Part of me would have no complaints about getting this little guy out of me, but I am not really ready for him to be here. Especially with Jared having been gone the last two weeks. I feel like I didn't get to go on one last date with him, or spend any time with just him, or go do something fun as a family before everything changes. The other part of me thinks that if I do go in and they flip him just fine and send me on my way, I might be a little disappointed or feeling like, "seriously....two more weeks" even though I know that will fly by. The last few days of work were kinda brutal for me. I felt so swollen and uncomfortable and my blood pressure was really high. I am sure which ever way it plays out I will be glad that that's how it went. I do have to say that I am so lucky to have so many great friends from the ward and family close by. I have had so many people stepping up to offer to help out with the boys and take care of us. Thank you to the Beals for feeding us last night even though you have your hands full with lots of new changes right now (like a new baby). And another sister from the ward took the boys yesterday so that I could take an hour nap and not have to worry about them...so nice. Then my family has been so helpful with the boys. I am so blessed to be surrounded by so many amazing people. Anyway, I guess I better go back my bag...just in case. :)