Monday, December 13, 2010

One day I'll know

So I haven't been on here for awhile because my wife does most of the talking/blogging for us both. I wish that I had some explanation for the happenings in our lives for the last 2 years but I don't. I don't even know what to say to people who ask. I don't write my thoughts for those of you who frequent the blog, to analyze them or to tell me " what I need to do". I think that the last 2 years can compare to my time spent in Afghanistan. It has been the same in many ways like a battle spiritually. I don't mean that in the sense that I've felt less spiritual but, to fight to keep the same level of spirituality and harmony in our home. I think that Lord has given Myca and I these trials to better us in some way. Maybe there is something worse down the road and this is to develop "calluses" to soften the blow. Maybe Afghanistan and the things that have happened with the police departments are giving me experience so I can share it with someone who might go through something similar. I for one, don't claim to know what role I will take in the big scheme of things but I do know that a wise man ( it's always a wise man) told me that the only thing that you can do is open your mind and heart to let the Lord speak to you. "You have good fiber in your soul, a good father, and strive to be the best husband you can." I never show this part of me, those who know me, but I listen to the still small voice leading me and my family somewhere. I don't know where it will be, but the fact that He has guided me through a lot worse is comforting. I have so much to be thankful for. I have three of the best sons that a dad could ask for. They know how to push my buttons to the point that I yell....and sometimes maybe a bit too much. The Lord has put each one of those boys in my life to help me be a better dad.
Speaking of putting people in my life to make me better, that would be my lovely wife Myca. There are no words that can describe the way she makes me feel, but I will certainly try. When I met Myca over 8 years ago she rocked my world with that sexy hair. I saw her coming from the parking lot of the church. I still remember what she was wearing. I thought....well I wont tell you what I thought, but I knew that I needed to get to know her. I'll save you the details, but we were married 6 months later. She is what I think about when I have down time. She is the best friend that I could ask for. She brings the soft side out in me. She can give me "the look" and say, "That is your lie face... what are you really thinking?" I dont know anyone who can tell "my lie face" because I don't even know it, so there. She works so hard. I know there are people out there that can say there wife is the best but I can say that mine is even better. She is better because she makes me better.
Myca and I will have been married for 8 years on the 20th of this month. We have had some trials like so many other married couples have had. The only differnece is that I got to have those with my Myca. I love you very much Myca and can't imagine my life with out you. We will come out of this valley and be standing on the next peak and just think of the hard work that it took to get there. Happy 8 years.

8 comments:

Our Little Hatch Family !!! said...

Hello my very old Friend...I am so very sorry that life has handed you some difficult times and I pray the light is coming soon to your tunnel of doubts...Hang in there! I always read your sweet wife's blog and am very grateful that it has been a small glimpse of how I can keep in touch with a long lost friend that always made me smile when ever I was around you! Happy Early Anniversary, by the way, Eight years is amazing! Your beautiful wife and handsome boys are so lucky to have such a wonderful man in there lives...I can tell you married an angel cause she is always trying to be perfect even through the struggles! I wish I could give you some "words of Wisdom" but I would have to agree with "the wise man!" You are an incredible Father, and husband because you put yourself out there to be perfected by the Lord...my mother told me two things when I was balling one night on how I didn't think I could be a mother cause I was not going to have the company of my family close by for a very long time, and I still don't... She told me "this to shall pass" and "he never said it would be easy, he only said it would be worth it" I am sure you have heard both but these two statements, but they have gotten me through some dark times in my own life...Early on I learned that I could not go a day without reading the scriptures cause it was a life line to me when there was none...It is very hard not having family close by to call on some times, but as we both know what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger...You and your wife make me want to try harder in my own personal struggles...Thank you for being the right kind of friend and influence to me when I needed it...It is always harder to have faith when our struggles seem to engulf us in frustration and hard times but I know if we are doing what is right, we will be blessed with the faith we need to get us through hour by hour, day by day when we place our hands in the Lords to lead and guide our lives in the right direction! I pray things will get better for you and yours, I saw an interesting sign on the side of the road that just came to mind, Christ was born in a "stable" in a very "unstable" world... I am grateful for your sweet words as well as your wife's and want to send my best and loving wishes to your and yours this time of year in keeping our Savior ever so close in this unstable world we live in...because he is our way home, he is our light in our darkest moments and he is each and every one of O-U-R S-A-V-I-O-R-S to hold on too when life seems unbearable! Happy Holidays my old friend!

Our Little Hatch Family !!! said...

Sorry for the extremely LONG post...

Our Little Hatch Family !!! said...

Right after I wrote this I opened my scriptures and read this and felt you should probably read it too, it is one of my favorite quotes/scriptures that I have around my home D&C 121 7-10

Anna Beal said...

Well Jared, you probably know that way back in the day before you and Myca were even engaged her family came to me asking my "thoughts" about you...I didn't have the best opinion. It had no backing whatsoever. I didn't even know you. But I thought you were a bit "dirty" for my Myca. Of course I quickly learned I must have been mistaken because she quickly fell HEAD OVER HILLS for you. Now I just know your were PURE guy...nothing more. I loved that you made her laugh. I could tell she was smitten. You two are amazing people. You come from GREAT families. I think about Myca often. I'm so glad she blogs. It makes me feel like I am keeping in touch in some way. Sorry for the trials you are both going through. You deserve the best life has to offer. Tell your sweet wife I love her and to hang in there. :)

Kacey Nielsen said...

Happy eight years! I don't know much about life but I do know the best part about being near the bottom is there is so much good to look forward to. There is good ahead... I know it.

::lindsay said...

Congratulations on 8 years! I'm sorry for the job trials you've been having. I appreciate you guys sharing though and am impressed by what a great family you guys have built. I agree with Kacey--there are good things coming your way very soon!

angie said...

It's just so hard being as awesome as you are sometimes..."the man" just trying to keep ya down all the time.
as Tupac once said "you gotta keep your head up"..hey life can only get better right?

love you guys.

Brandon Read said...

Well said brother. Keep your head up. I will see you in 4 days, and you know what that means.