Today is our actual anniversary. I worked last night and slept today, but woke up to my sweet husband cooking us a nice little dinner. I am very blessed to have him in my life. We had some more disappointing news today. It is hard to be positive and look forward to the future when you are in the middle of such a difficult time. I am trying my best to remeber how blessed I am. I am trying to not let this ruin this holiday season for me....to remember Christ. I am trying to be patient and faithful and hope that we will be given some kind of direction or guidance. My heart breaks for my husband. I wish I had the answers for him. I wish I knew what we are supposed to do.