Back to the Drawing Board.

I can't believe that it has already been 8 weeks since Tayden was born. I now am preparing myself to go back to work today. I am so not ready....I am feeling a little freaked out....actually a lot freaked out. I kinda feel like I am going to have a freakin anxiety attack. I am starting a new shift. I will be working Mondays and Tuesdays from 4:00-12:30 and every third weekend. This way Jared will be able to watch the boys and I will only have to work part time. I am so worried about the new shift and the people I will be working with...plus when I left we had opened up a whole new area in the hospital for surgery and we got a new computer system...so I am coming back to a whole bunch of changes. Then I have Tayden weighing on the back of my mind....you know.....when will he eat, when will he sleep, will I be able to pump enough. All that kinda stuff. Ahhh....I just am not ready!
Jared is starting his math class this week....yes he is going to take it again. At least that is the plan for now. He just feels like by taking it again he is sure that he will pass. He is worried that if he trys to study for the clept and then doesn't pass it that he will have to wait another six months to take it. So he is going to start the class and then he will be working out at the guard in flight ops until he knows what is happening with Boise City. He interviews with them on Saturday. I would be shocked if they don't want to offer him a position....I just think it will be a matter of when they can actually start him. So for me right now there are still a lot of unknowns with our situation. We don't know how long Jared can pick up shifts out at the guard....so I just hope everything turns out.
On a good note....my very best friend from high school Kristen and her hubby Nick are coming to visit us this week. I am SO EXCITED! I just hope by the time they get here I haven't had a nervous break down because of work. Wish me luck!