These Days...

These days I am thankful that I have a husband that knows me so well. I was feeling really overwhelmed, tired, unappreciated, resentful....the list goes on. So I sat down right before I had to go to work on Tuesday and made a HUGE list of all the things that I needed to get done. I decided not to say anything to Jared about how I was feeling hoping that today I would get a whole bunch done and feel better about things. When I woke up this morning, to my delight, Jared had done a ton of things on my list. I didn't even have to say anything, but that was exactly in my mind what I needed him to do. I am thankful for him. He makes me happy. I spend the day watching the clock or finding things to make the time pass and keep me busy till he gets home. He is up to his eyeballs in law and criminal justice stuff now that he has started his new job, but he loves it already.
These days Tayden is a bottomless pit. He wants to eat all day. I am sure it has something to do with the fact that he isn't drinking formula anymore. The top three choice to tame the little beast's appetite are yogurt, toast, and for dessert...M&M's. He loves them. I broke him of his bottle this week and he is learning to like his sippy cup more and more. He's walking everywhere and doing good about staying out of things he is supposed to. Watch out though....he's a biter. If he is mad or tired or irritated he will throw his face down into the closes thing and bite...you name it....the couch, Boston's face, my leg...yep doesn't feel too awesome.
These days Boston continues to test his limits with me. He has his own agenda and idea of what he thinks needs to go on around here. I struggle to find patience with him and to not loose my temper because I am pretty sure he pushes my buttons and disobeys me on purpose. He hates time outs and will never sit quietly when put there. I have taken his sippy cup from him and he is only allowed a big boy cup now mainly because he was laying down all day with his cup and just drinking....he would never eat....and every time he wanted a drink he would get a pillow and a blanket and lay down. It was getting a little ridiculous. I know that he is a sweet little tender hearted boy because every once and a while he will let me see it. He is sweet when I sit with him and give him one on one time and do something that he gets my full attention....that isn't always easy with a one year old. He loves to bake with me and helped me make some delicious M&M cookies (he chose the M&M instead of chocolate chips). He is such a blessing and trial in my life all at the same time. I hope am being a good mother and teaching him what he needs to learn about life and in turn learning some things myself. Some days I definitely don't feel like I have it figured out with him....regardless I love that boy so much. That's what is going on these days...